frightfiction Chapter 157 Nice to meet you
Chapter 157 Nice to meet you
In an instant, Jin Zhi recalled all the scenes and she trembled all over. Those were memories that she didn't even realize were already rooted deep in her mind. She had become accustomed to them, but they were extremely painful.
Just like that, it was uncovered and exposed completely.
Jin Zhi seemed to have returned to his childhood, and the words that he thought he had forgotten clearly echoed in his ears again.
"spendthrift!"
"Everything costs money. It's really a money-loser."
The man sat on the sofa, glanced at the vegetables she and her mother had just bought, and glared at her unhappily.
She clutched her mother's clothes, not understanding why her father would scold her no matter what she bought.
"Buy whatever you want, what's delicious? Is it easy for me to make some money?"
"So expensive, what a black-hearted bastard. He is just trying to rob people. None of these rich people are good."
Therefore, she never dared to ask for anything.
She still remembers the first time she saw a cake. It was one afternoon when she carefully lay beside the shop door and leaned her head to look at the colorful pieces in the cupboard.
She only dared to look because she knew that these things could never belong to her.
"It's embarrassing or not, what are you looking at?"
After scolding the father, he said something out of character: "I'm in a good mood today, so I'll buy it for you."
He pointed to a corner of the store and said to the clerk: "Bring one of those here."
Jin Zhi held it in his hand, and when he got home he looked at it for a long time before he was willing to eat it, sipping it in small bites.
At night, I fell into vomiting and fever.
"I told you to eat, but you got sick from eating. You're wasting my money on seeing a doctor."
It was not until she went to school and learned to read that she finally understood the four words written on the cake brand.
End-of-term treatment.
"Remember to study hard. I work so hard all day long to make money so that you can have a good life. Do you understand?"
"You eat and drink at my expense all day, and you get this grade?"
"You're like this, and you still want to buy something? Where do you get the nerve to do that?"
Jin Zhi's vision became a little blurry, and he felt something warm liquid sliding across his face.
"Only when he is willing to spend money on you, do you feel your existence and have a sense of security."
“But you’re not happy.”
"Every time you spend money, you feel terrified and guilty. You feel like you are taking the flesh and blood of your parents."
No matter how broken your heart is, you still need those gems.
Crave them, but they don’t come in good shape.
He just rushed around recklessly, turning his "flesh and blood" into a terrifying gem, leaving her to take it herself.
Every time I take one, I will remember what they originally looked like and how they came.
"Why do you know..." Jin Zhi's voice was a little hoarse.
Even when I grow up, I still hesitate when I see something that costs a few dollars.
Even if her salary was enough to buy a box of strawberries, she didn't dare to buy a pound. The first thought that came to her mind was not to buy it, it would be a waste.
Go buy something cheaper that is barely enough.
Go buy something cheaper but of poor quality.
Go buy it, it’s cheaper, but it’s not your favorite thing.
However, what is more common than these thoughts is that people think that it is okay not to buy them, and it is such a waste to buy them for themselves.
Are your own thoughts important? Not important.
Is it important to like someone? It’s not important.
What surrounds you, what you own...
Always cheap.
Just as she thought she was...
Never worthy.
Jin Zhixin suddenly felt pain and burst into tears, covering her face with her hands.
All the sorrow surged up in her, as if the chill of many years had enveloped her and made her shiver.
Zuo Xiuyan sighed in his heart.
Children will always unconsciously accept their parents' ideas and attitudes about the world.
Children will always have an unconscious loyalty to their parents and a strong sense of belonging.
Is Jin Zhi's view of the world and her attitude towards money really her own thoughts?
No, that comes from family.
Her wrong understanding of money and her wrong understanding of herself are the root causes that make her sink deeper into the quagmire the harder she works.
Zuo Xiuyan slowly walked forward and stood in front of her.
Jin Zhi seemed to sense something and put his hand down.
Zuo Xiuyan looked into her eyes and said slowly and seriously:
"Money is not money. It is just a part of yourself. Your relationship with money is your relationship with yourself."
"You don't actually love money at all, because you have never loved yourself."
Jin Zhixin suddenly felt a pang of pain and tears welled up in her eyes again.
She closed her eyes tightly, trying to hold it back and not lose her composure.
"Crying is just a normal way to relieve emotions. There's nothing wrong with it. You can allow yourself to have emotions." Zuo Xiuyan raised his hand and wiped away the tears on half of her face with his thumb.
This time, Jin Zhi cried louder again and could hardly control himself.
It was like letting out all the grievances that had been suppressed for so many years.
Zuo Xiuyan stopped talking and let her cry quietly.
When her crying gradually subsided, he gently wiped her tears with his hands again: "This shouldn't be something that traps you."
“You can start loving yourself at any time.”
Jin Zhi looked up. The woman in front of her was so strange, but she could see through her at a glance. Her voice was soft, but it gave her infinite power.
It was one of the few times, no, it was the first time, that someone told her these things in person.
Things she had never discovered, never understood.
The person opposite her is like her mirror.
It revealed her deep-seated scars.
It illuminates the self deep in my mind who has always been asking for help.
"Thank you." Jin Zhi said with tears in his eyes, "I will."
"Yes." Zuo Xiuyan smiled, "You will become a rich person who loves yourself, is kind, and is happy."
The gold, silver and treasures all around began to tremble as if there was an earthquake. Their spikes kept shrinking and the dirty stains were receding.
The golden mountain collapsed and gradually merged with the ground.
And the spherical crystal that was originally on the top of the mountain continued to rise.
The ground began to melt continuously, as if being roasted by high temperature, and everything merged into one, indistinguishable from each other.
After just a few seconds, the entire ground had become completely flat and smooth, as if there was no end.
Like a golden lake, it emits a dazzling light.
The crystal clear crystal is like a bright moon, casting a cold and quiet light.
The originally depressing and dull atmosphere has disappeared without a trace, leaving only a peaceful, tranquil, clear and transparent scene.
At this moment, there was silence all around.
The "lake surface" clearly reflected the figures of both of them.
"My name is Zuo Xiuyan, nice to meet you, Jin Zhi."
Jin Zhi looked at the hand the other person extended, she took a deep breath, raised her hand and shook it.
Then, formally, seriously, and solemnly, he said his own name.
"My name is Jin Zhi, nice to meet you, Zuo Xiuyan."