I am just a mortal, why do you all worship me as a saint?

Chapter 1137: Between Rejection and Acceptance

After all.

He had preconceived notions that cats should be obedient and quiet, and he liked to pet cats, so Su Jinxi was always obedient and quiet, never doing anything that overstepped her feline role, and never even making a sound.

But what if Su Jinxi doesn't like this?

She was only willing to endure it to satisfy his preferences?

She wasn't actually content to be just a kitten who could quietly be petted in his arms.

"I understand, it was my oversight."

Gu Heng gently stroked Su Jinxi's cheek, as if soothing a sulking kitten, "Actually, I think it's a beautiful sight to see you sitting with Yi Yao."

"From now on, try to look like a human more often. You're actually very pretty."

Su Jinxi paused, a complex emotion flashing in her eyes.

"Tch, of course I know I'm pretty."

"Brother Gu is so heartless. He clearly knows what I want, but he deliberately avoids talking about it. It's always the same."

She muttered to herself for a moment, then playfully punched Gu Heng's chest.

What I want is certainly more than just "speaking".

Once a demon has set its sights on someone, it will be entangled for lifetimes. She has followed Gu Heng for so long, from the lower realm to the heavens, that feeling can no longer be summed up in a few simple words.

But she could also sense the invisible barrier surrounding Gu Heng.

It's not directed at her, but at all relationships that might become too intimate.

He was hesitant and evasive, like a wounded beast that, even after its wounds have healed, is still instinctively wary of any warmth that gets too close.

"I'm not made of wood, and I don't want to be cruel to you or Yi Yao."

"It's just not the right time right now."

This was the first time Gu Heng had spoken so clearly.

Amnesia is like a thick fog, not only separating him from the past, but also filling him with uncertainty about the future.

He still harbored reservations and doubts about his identity, and was even less certain about the conflicts he was about to be drawn into. At such times, he instinctively wanted to maintain the purity and safety of the precious connections around him.

Any intimacy that might disrupt this balance should not be considered.

Let’s put it bluntly.

What time is it? Are you still thinking about whether your little brother can have fun?

Of course, if you really end up on a dead end and your little brother still doesn't get his fill, that would be a bit too frustrating...

But Gu Heng absolutely did not want to fall into that kind of desperate situation.

"..."

Su Jinxi fell silent.

Inside the flower pavilion, only the rustling of leaves in the breeze and the faint sounds of activity from the mansion in the distance could be heard.

The hurt in her eyes gradually faded, replaced by a complex understanding and a faint sense of loss.

She wasn't entirely ignorant of these things; it's just that the demon race is inherently fiery, and once they've made up their minds, they want to fight for it. The bloodline restlessness brought about by the demon god's fetus might have amplified this emotion.

But Gu Heng's words were like a bucket of calming spring water, waking her up.

She thought of Qin Yiyao, of that girl's seemingly aloof yet almost obsessive gaze toward her master, and of Gu Heng's occasional gazing at the sky in a daze, his eyes seemingly carrying the loneliness of eternity.

The burden on his shoulders was far heavier than they could see, and his confusion was far deeper than they could feel.

"Brother Gu has endured a lot."

After a long while, Su Jinxi spoke softly, her tone returning to its usual gentleness, but lacking some of her deliberate coquettishness.

She stopped trying to get closer and instead moved back, sitting upright opposite Gu Heng: "I overstepped my bounds, only thinking about my own thoughts and not considering your feelings."

"No way, no one would blame you if it were you."

Gu Heng chuckled.

The cat isn't a bad person, and besides, he was just being too presumptuous, so you can't blame her.

"I don't feel comfortable living without you by my side."

Although the system gave itself a name and had a physical body, it could not truly replace Su Jinxi and Qin Yiyao.

after all.

He couldn't, and dared not, hold the system in his arms and pet it.

Upon hearing this, Su Jinxi lowered her head, her snow-white tail drooping listlessly at her side: "I'm just a little worried. It feels like even though Brother Gu is still by my side after he came back, he also seems very far away."

Her voice grew softer and softer, with a barely perceptible tremor.

This is her true fear deep inside.

The demon race has never been afraid of waiting.

But the complete silence and uncertainty of life or death during separation are enough to wear down even the most resilient nerves.

Gu Heng's return filled her with joy, but the ensuing complex situation and the changes in Gu Heng's own condition made her even more uneasy.

Su Jinxi desperately wanted to grasp something to confirm her importance in his heart, to confirm that this connection was strong enough to withstand the storms of the future.

Gu Heng's heart was gently touched.

He looked at Su Jinxi, who rarely showed such a vulnerable side, and reached out to ruffle her soft hair, just like he used to stroke a cat's fur.

"Not anymore."

Gu Heng promised, his voice gentle yet firm, "At least I won't disappear without explanation again."

"And I certainly won't forget about you."

He was probably lucky that he didn't die in the Epoch Cemetery when he fell into the trap last time.

Will I be so lucky next time?

"Okay, then I'll remember this well, so that if you break your promise next time, I won't be able to find out what's wrong with Brother Gu."

The bitterness in Su Jinxi's heart was gradually replaced by a warm current.

Although the outcome wasn't what she wanted, at least she clearly conveyed her feelings and didn't let him treat her lightly or disrespectfully. He was simply protecting their existing relationship in his own way.

Perhaps this is not so bad, at least she is still by his side and can still see him and keep him company.

As for the future... who can say for sure?

She transformed back into the sensible cat, carefully concealing her surging emotions deep within her heart.

Some things don't need to be said.

Waiting for the right opportunity is the better choice.

Having figured all this out, Su Jinxi's smile became much more natural, even carrying a hint of her usual cunning and lively charm.

"How well is that demon god embryo working?"

Gu Heng then inquired about her cultivation progress.

There was really no other way; the atmosphere had already become somewhat ambiguous, and he didn't want it to continue to be disrupted by it.

"very good."

Once the hurt and questioning subsided, Su Jinxi returned to her usual gentle and smiling tone.

"Brother Gu, you should see for yourself."

Without waiting for Gu Heng's response, she got up from him and took two steps back.

Her fingertips gently lifted her waist, revealing her snow-white, flat abdomen.

Then Gu Heng saw that there were some water-like patterns on her lower abdomen, with a radiant inner glow. They looked incredibly strange, and you could even vaguely see a curled-up shadow, exuding an ancient charm!

"what is this?"

Gu Heng's expression turned strange.